NIKI

BUZZ

It’s the anticipation when the amps turn on
Just cables and crackle
It’s the first flicker of the neon sign
It’s the words stuck in your Adam’s apple

It’s a hand on the handle of the front door
It’s making eyes in the middle of the dance floor
I feel like hot shit, wanna make out
in your car in the lot of a drugstore

It’s a bumblebee on a blossom
The first coffee shop run in autumn
It’s that feeling, a propeller
The first line of a fucking bestseller

The song’s about to start (can you hear it?)
The door’s about to open (can you feel it?)
The flower’s about to fruit (can you see it?)
I’m about to fall for you

It’s the accidental touch when you don’t mean to
The thickest tension
It’s the millisecond freeze frame after good news
or an unexpected mention

It’s the big long bow before the show ends
The phone toss when it’s risky and you hit send
It’s feeling dizzy when you’re tipsy
Wondering why you’re so nervous ‘round a so-called “friend”

It’s goosebumps when you hear the drums
The running start before the big jump
It’s that feeling, so stellar
Bro, if you like her just go & fucking tell her

The song’s about to start (can you hear it?)
The door’s about to open (can you feel it?)
The flower’s about to fruit (can you see it?)
I’m about to fall for you

The song’s about to start (can you hear it?)
The door’s about to open (can you feel it?)
The flower’s about to fruit (can you see it?)
I’m about to fall for you
I’m about to fall for you
I’m about to fall for you
I’m about to fall for you

Well, you look like you’re gonna break my heart
and I look like a tough shot in the dark on a good day
Intentions clear and stronger than the noon sky
You’re the bee’s knees, I’m the bull’s eye
but in a doomed way

You can do your own thing, look, the choice is yours
but I can’t help that I’m the thing you’re looking for

We could be too much of a good thing
but isn’t that a real good thing?
Oh baby, look me in the eye and say you don’t got it bad
Maybe it won’t be a sure thing
But it sure is a good thing
I get the feeling that this feeling isn’t one meant to last anyway
So what do you say?
What do you say?

You show off your true nature on your earlobe,
Serpentine – you’re a walking, breathing trope in a fun way
Not to jinx it, but I wanna be the reason
your future lovers keep changing with the seasons, babe

Something tells me this is gonna hurt someday
But I don’t believe in mistakes
I know that’s convenient to say

You have too much of a good thing
But isn’t that a real good thing?
Oh baby, say it with your hands and we can talk all night long
Maybe it won’t be a sure thing
But it sure is a good thing
I get the feeling that you’re something that will surely go wrong, but never away
So what do you say?
What do you say?

So you wanna talk?
You can do so to my moisturized hand
I swear to God, this is your last year to understand
No, you don’t get to drop my name
I loved you like family, what a big fat shame

And yeah, I’m gonna play the shit out of the blame game
I actually think it’s criminally underrated
Burn a bridge, build a resume
Nice trade, and yet you’re still a jack of none

I hope that it was worth it
Do I think you deserve this?
My answer doesn’t matter
Cause you and I, we don’t talk
To my benefit and your colossal loss

Is this what the kids call petty?
I’m happy to report that petty feels pretty awesome
Now your heart feels heavy?
What happened to making light of every problem?

And now you expect me
to wanna get brunch?
No thanks, but someone more important might
I don’t know, it’s just a hunch

I hope that it was worth it
Do I think you deserve this?
My answer doesn’t matter
Cause you and I, we don’t talk
To my benefit and your colossal loss

To my sadness and your sadder, colossal loss
You should’ve seen that this would be your colossal loss

You’re a complicated puzzle
I so badly wanna piece together to justify my mental strife
Could the big picture maybe muffle
all the sirens going off?
And then my friends can’t say they were right

No guys I swear! He’s not emotionally unavailable, he’s just traumatized
No guys I swear! He’s not a lost cause, it’s just he hasn’t met the girl that will fix his life
(But who am I kidding?)

Your eyes, ever-shifting
Something’s always missing
Why can’t you look at what’s in front of you!!

Focus for once
What is it that you want?
You’d probably burst into flames if you ask yourself that
I shouldn’t stick around
You got a girl that’s a “friend” in every town
Who’s the cliché, who’s the clown?
Which one’s me, which one’s you?
Either way, it’s true
Wish you’d focus on what’s in front of you right now
(Wish you’d focus on what’s in front of you right now)

Don’t talk to me about your last date
I’m seething through my smile
I hope she stubs her toe next time she texts
Her name is probably Cecilia
She shops at Aritzia
And has your lips all over her neck

What are the odds that you actually like me and not just the chase?
Prolly embarrassingly low!
Are you The Exception or do I just like your music taste?
I can’t tell, I don’t know

What’s important to you? (God knows!)
I keep looking for clues (Oh no!)
Be a big boy and face the fucking truth

Focus for once
What is it that you want?
You’d probably burst into flames if you ask yourself that
I shouldn’t stick around
You got a girl that’s a “friend” in every town
Who’s the cliché, who’s the clown?
Which one’s me, which one’s you?
Either way, it’s true
Wish you’d focus on what’s in front of you right now
(Wish you’d focus on what’s in front of you!)

Focus for once
You know what you want

Did you like her in the morning?
Right before all the sleep left your eyes
Did you bother to draw the curtains?
And if you did, did the light burn too bright?

Did you laugh over cold cups of coffee?
That you hate but still drank anyway
Did you get past the walls, did you see through them all?
And if you didn’t, do you still hope to someday?

I know it’d be easier if I just didn’t ask (I know, I know, I know)
But it’d also be easier if she wasn’t your last

Did you like her touch at nighttime?
Did all the pretending help you forget?
Was she weightless in just your sweater?
And does it feel heavy now to look at me instead?

Did your hands find her waist when she got sloppy?
After just a few Manhattans in Berlin
Would you kiss her goodnight, would you walk her inside?
Did you hope the nights would never ever end?

And again,

I know it’d be easier if I just didn’t ask (I know, I know, I know)
But it’d also be easier if she wasn’t your last
‘Cause I don’t know if I can compete
With the former crowned head of your old Ford’s front seat
And the story goes, you blame it on the lonely nights for it ever starting
But answer the question,
Did you like her in the morning?

Did you like her in the morning?
Right before all the sleep left your eyes

You take Sherman Oaks
Your backyard citrus grove
Find your zest for life again

I’ll take this corner gladly
Of the San Fernando Valley
As we take turns seeing all our friends

So you take your walks
And i’ll take the dog
On a drive somewhere
And you take care

You take someone’s clothes off
And someone takes me home
When bitterness bites, novelty is nectar

Take the craftsman picks
And I’ll start taking risks
And take my word for it, knowing you made me better

So you take it easy
And I’ll take my time
It’s only fair
You take the cake
For a love so rare
So you take care

I wanna be an itch you can’t scratch
I don’t need to know where you’re at
You put on a show when there’s nothing else to say
I only know, cause I’m the same way

And I’ve kept you at an arm’s length,
but now my shoulder’s sore
It’s out of my hands to wanna feel yours

Like some kind of magnet
You’re a mystic force
I try to explain away through planets, of course
But it’s no use, there’s no rhyme or reason
Each time I push the thoughts away, you’re pulling me in
Again and again and again

The air buzzes whenever you’re near
Are you the one, or are you just a mirror?
Either way, you have me at my wit’s end
Guess what I’m trying to say is,
I’d rather die than be friends

Can’t you feel the steady thrum
when you and I are side by side?
It’s electric when our fingers brush
Quit acting like

We’re not two magnets
A mystic force
I try to explain away through planets, of course
But it’s no use, there’s no rhyme or reason
Each time I push the thoughts away, you keep pulling me in
Again and again and again

I don’t wanna be your friend
I couldn’t care less if this ends, in the end

A roaring tsunami
You came crashing in like an act of God
Shake my earth, suck the air out, burn me down
It’s like you’ve known me through all my past lives, what an evil thought
Wreck my plans, stop me dead, kiss me now

Hand on my leg
Chokehold on my head
I wanna be wherever you are
Wanna get carried away
Want wave after wave
Cause

I’m going under
Storm, lightning, thunder
I’m drowning in the deepest of truths
Fuck, I think I’m falling for you

We spoke and the wind changed
The very first day, right away I knew
It was over, you exist now, to my doom
and I swore I wouldn’t curl up in the palm of your hand, oh no I refuse
But there’s nothing I can do

I asked you at the beach
Swan dove headfirst into the blue
Was this a crazy reach?
And the rest is glorious history, ain’t it now?
Cause

I’m going under
Storm, lightning, thunder
I’m drowning in the deepest of truths
Fuck, I think I’m falling for you
I’m tired of playing pretend
I wanna jump right off the deep end
Sink into the God honest truth
Fuck, I think I’m falling for you

I’m going under
Fuck, I think I’m falling for you
Oh, I think I’m falling for you
Fuck, I think I’m falling for you

Take it from the wolves
To make it out the woods together is an art
We couldn’t do such a thing
We were too afraid of the dark

So you drove far, far, far away
From the life we built
Brick by brick just until
we were swept up in the cruelest cyclone

Oh, my eyes were glued to yours
As we chose to ignore
the rattling floorboards
Now I’m sleeping alone

Four full laps around the sun
We wouldn’t admit that we were done
Now I may very well have just lost the one
(I may very well have just lost the one)
I’m a January baby, you were born in June
An ice cold bitch when you burn like noon
Was it hidden in the cards that I’d lose you?
Was it written in the stars that we’d meet a little too soon?

Just a little too soon
On the wrong blue moon
The wrong blue moon
Just a little too soon

You are good
It’s that very goodness that antagonizes me
How could I ever measure up?
It took being written out the novel to finally see
That you care more about

Being good than being good to me
And yes, the difference may be subtle
but it would have saved us, baby
Oh, I’ve never been worried
‘bout getting my hands dirty
But you wash yours of any ownership
in the mess we made

Four full laps around the sun
We wouldn’t admit that we were done
Now I may very well have just lost the one
(I may very well have just lost the one)
I’m a January baby, you were born in June
An ice cold bitch when you burn like noon
Was it hidden in the cards that I’d lose you?
Was it written in the stars that we’d meet a little too soon?

Just a little too soon
On the wrong blue moon
The wrong blue moon

And I know it’s not every day you meet somebody like you
It’s once in the bluest moon, the love we had and still do
Maybe I’ll give you a call when I turn thirty-two
And you’ll say, “who knew?

“The four full laps around the sun
Once upon a time when were young
You were really always gonna be the one”
I hope that you’re always gonna be the one

I’m a January baby, you were born in June
An ice cold bitch when you burn like noon
Was it hidden in the cards that I’d lose you?
Was it written in the stars that we’d meet a little too soon?

Just a little too soon
On the wrong blue moon
The wrong blue moon
Just a little too soon

A little too soon
It would’ve been you

Gazing out the windows of the bus
Watching Maryland pass by
There was sky, and where there wasn’t,
there was the thought of us
Maryland passed, and so did I

Soft like wax, sharp as an axe
Both can’t be true in my world
New indentations cover my back
Goddamn it, I’m at least somebody’s strong girl,
mm, aren’t I?

You surprised me on the road, I didn’t catch
your distinct footfalls up the stage
I’ll admit that made the tour less of a drag
And like a child, or a fool, I hoped you’d stay

Revolving doors spit me out onto the street
Sling my bags over my shoulder and cry
Press my belly, pull the tab and just maybe
I’ll flash my teeth, the ache’s the best index for drive
In my mother’s words,
“Just drag your heels and don’t you draw a line, be strong, girl”
Strong girl

It’s to the death, or less than nothing
I’m a pendulum, I don’t know where I’ll land,
I just know that I can swing it, I’ll always swing it

Cause Goddamn it, fuck if I’m not everybody’s strong girl, mm
Ooh, strong girl
Who am I if I can’t be everybody’s strong girl?
Strong girl
Aren’t I?

If God really listens
like your mom says he does
then he better be saving you
for our future kids and dogs

I thought we’d be married
Two pillars firm and proud
But real love is a verb
I get it now

My youth is in your past
You’ll always have that
and though it didn’t last,
I hope our paths cross again

If time heals all,
it’s a lousy doctor
or a half-baked thought
Cause I still can’t block you

I came upon family
and thought I was stifled
Thought my freedom endangered
I was just young and entitled

And you taught me a lot
Stretched and wrung and tossed
I’m sorry we got lost,
I hope our paths cross again

We’ll love others
We’ll drift apart
but every time I sing a song,
you won’t be very far

The future’s ours to write
The songs, the scars, the life
I’ll catch up with you some other time
when our paths cross again

Cross again

Build a pillow barricade so the ghosts can’t get to me
Twenty-something instincts feel like a deadbeat dad
Never there when it counts and puts you right in therapy
Life is a gamble, baby, and you’ll have to live with that

Oh, but I’ll be fine cause I always end up
just fine, then I call a friend up
That’s just how it is

And I wake up tired and vaguely sore
Stir a pot when I’m feeling bored
Full-sending a lot, only halfway sure
Walking around with heirloom pain
Dad’s temper and mom’s mistakes
and always afraid to fall flat on my face
yet doing it anyway
I’m doing it anyway

Walls up to the skies,
many men have marched around to no avail
There’s Achilles, then there’s
his godforsaken heel

I do the dishes and tend the garden
Soften up where I used to harden
Then take a moonlit walk

And I wake up tired and vaguely sore
Stir a pot when I’m feeling bored
Full-sending a lot, only halfway sure
Walking around with heirloom pain
Grandma left but her heartache stayed
and now I’m always afraid to take up space
yet doing it anyway
I’m doing it anyway

People fall in love and fuck up
and have kids who fall in love and fuck up
who have kids that fall in love and have you
People fall in love and fuck up
We all fall in love and fuck up
You will fall in love and fuck up too

You go to someone’s afters thing
An hour in and the floor’s disgusting
Then the room is a sailboat in a storm
and a new friend’s a soaring kite
And you blink, and there goes another night

You call your sweetie when you can
A minute in and it’s bitter again
And what’s unsaid feel like concrete slabs
Hailing down from the sky so fast
So you hang up, and you’re not sure if you wanna cry or laugh

And you look around your bedroom
You’re all alone again
No one’ll ever save you
No one and nothing can
But you still smile at a stranger
And you still make your weekend plans
No one will ever save you
No one and nothing can

We’re hostages to the hour and the minute hands
Working overtime just to freeze them
‘Cause sitting alone with yourself is burning alive
So you blast the speakers on the drive
Never knowing if the notes will either douse or fan the fire

Now I’m pacing around my dressing room
Looking in the mirror alone again
No one’ll ever save you, girl
No one and nothing can
But you’ll still write another song
And you’ll still get breakfast with the band
No one will ever save you, girl
No one and nothing can

Mmm, no one and nothing can
Mmm, no one and nothing can
Mmm, no one and nothing can

Nicole

[VERSE 1]
You hid me in your dorm room
It was Halloweekend, I just flew
across the globe, 22 hours just to see you
Just to barely fit on your twin-sized bed
and talk about your cool new friend
who I never met
who you dated as soon as I left

[VERSE 2]
Carolina autumn
It had been a year since I saw you, since we ended it
Had a year to grow into the girl you always wanted
Now we’re holding hands, as not quite friends, but not quite lovers
Well we’ll just pretend
You say “it’s complicated to make amends”
Well is that the way that we’re headed then?

[PRE 1]
And you couldn’t answer me
Though you could pull me in while I brushed my teeth
and let your hands both freely speak like I wasn’t ever gonna leave

[CHORUS 1]
You were all I’d ever known
and now I’m supposed to love you from a distance
like it’s nothing
like its instant
and you say “let’s just see where this goes”
and I don’t know how or why you seem just fine ’cause I’m having to grasp that you’re somehow not mine anymore
It’s so cruel how things are only almost like they were before

[POST 1]
(ah ah ah) Like they were before
(ah ah ah) Like they were before
(ah ah ah) Like they were before

[VERSE 3]
We walk downtown and it’s charming
You’re alarmingly disarming
Yeah we’ve got 48 hours left
before I fly back to my death
While you stay just fine
and feel alive
South of the Mason-Dixon line
where everyone closes shop at 9
where you could somehow finally find

[PRE 2]
what you were desperately looking for
Funny how you thought that was gonna be New York
with our chalkboard walls and slanted floors
Oh, we could’ve had that and so much more

Ask your new lover what it’s like to be given
a real fighting chance before you wish her good riddance
Did anything ever really count
or was I just a two-year practice round?

[CHORUS 2]
You were all I’d ever known
and now I’m feeling stupid
you’re forbidden
They say yeah we were something,
too bad we were children
Oh, I don’t know where to go
and I don’t know how or why you seem just fine
’cause I’m looking at you & God knows you’re not mine anymore
It’s so cruel how things will never be the way they were before

[POST 2]
Like they were before
It’s almost just like how it was before
But it’s not anymore

[VERSE 1]
Didn’t you hear Amanda’s moving back to Colorado?
It’s 2013 & the end of my life
Freshman year’s about to plummet just a little harder
But it didn’t cause we kissed on that Halloween night

[VERSE 2]
I bleached half my hair when I saw Zoe on your Vespa
It was orange from 3% peroxide, thanks to you
I needed a good cry, I headed right to Kendra’s
I hated you and I hoped to God that you knew

[PRE CHORUS 1]
Now there’s drama (drama)
Found a club for that
Where I met ya (met ya)
Had a heart attack
Yadda yadda
At the end, yeah we burned, made a couple U-turns, you were it til you weren’t (Mm)

[CHORUS 1]
High school in Jakarta, sorta modern Sparta
Had no chance against the teenage suburban armadas
We were a sonata, thanks to tight-lipped fathers
Yeah living under that was hard, but I loved you harder
High school in Jakarta, an elaborate saga
I still hate you for making me wish I came out smarter
You love/hate your mother, so do I
Could’ve ended different, then again we went to high school in Jakarta

[VERSE 2]
Got a group assignment, I’ll be at Vall’s place
You don’t text at all and only call when you’re off your face
I’m petty and say, “Call me when you’re not unstable”
I lie and tell you I’ll be getting drunk at Rachel’s

[PRE CHORUS 2]
I wasn’t
She doesn’t even drink
But I couldn’t have you sit there and think
That you’re better, cause you’re older
Are you better, now that we’re older?

[CHORUS 2]
High school in Jakarta, sorta modern Sparta
Had no chance against the teenage suburban armadas
We were a sonata, thanks to tight-lipped fathers
Yeah living under that was hard, but I loved you harder
High school in Jakarta, a comedy drama
I still hate you for making me wish I came out smarter
You love/hate your mother, so do I
Could’ve ended different, then again we went to high school in Jakarta

[BRIDGE]
Natasha’s moving to New York (New York)
Probably sometime in August (Ah)
And I’m spending the summer in Singapore
I’m so sad I can’t tell you shit anymore [CLEAN: I’m so sad I can’t call you up anymore]
I made friends with Abby this year (This is how I met your mother, oh my god)
We’re moving in in March or so
And although you bring me to tears
I’m glad that we gave it a go

[CHORUS 3]
High school in Jakarta, American summer
Had no chance against the Marxist girl with marijuana (Ah) [CLEAN: Had no chance against the Marxist, she loved Melodrama]
I was your piñata, she was a star-charter
Glad she gave it to you real hard, but I loved you harder
High school in Jakarta,
I won’t but I wanna
Ask you when you talk about it do I ever come up? (Ah)
Say thanks to your mama, now we’re through
Could’ve ended different, then again we went to high school in Jakarta

[VERSE 1]
I can’t lie, it feels nice that you’re calling
You sound sad and alone and you’re stalling
and for once, I don’t care about what you want, as long as we keep talking
(as long as we’re talking)

[VERSE 2]
I mean, you gotta admit the history’s
kind of unmatched
Asian Calvinism— we made it out of that
Well, whether we’re free of will or predestined,
Clearly I’ve not learned my lesson even now
Hope He doesn’t strike me down (strike me down)

[PRE CHORUS 1]
The Goo Goo Dolls are dead to me
the way you should be too
but you bring them up
along with how much I fucking miss you

[CHORUS 1]
Maybe I’m just not better than this, I haven’t tried
Maybe life’s less romantic when I don’t wanna die
You’d think I’d be a fast learner
but guess I won’t ever mind crisping up on your backburner

[POST]
Backburner
Your backburner
Your backburner
Your backburner

[VERSE 2]
It’s pathetic but at least, you are too
I don’t know what to do
I don’t like anyone except sometimes you
And now you’re sounding like a hurt puppy
You look ugly when you cry
but I’m the one you think to call
How do you feel lucky and appalled
at the same time?
After everything you put me through
I somehow still believe in you, oh (I do, I do, I do)

[PRE CHORUS 2]
but I know in a week or so,
you’ll fade away again
and I wish that I cared
Hey are you still there?
Good

[CHORUS 2]
Maybe I’m just not better than this, I haven’t tried
Cause maybe you’ll finally choose me after you’ve had more time
I thought I was a fast learner,
but guess I won’t ever mind, guess I won’t ever mind
Maybe I blame my mother bleeding into my stride
Maybe it was my father and his wandering eyes
(It’s their fault that) I’ll always be in your corner
Cause I don’t feel alive ‘til I’m burning on your backburner, oh-oh (Backburner, your backburner)

[POST]
Oh, and I know that it’s sad that I settle for the backburner
Oh-oh
(Your backburner, your backburner)
(Backburner, your backburner)
Oh, guess I won’t ever mind crisping up on your backburner,
Oh-oh
(Your backburner, your backburner)
(Backburner, your backburner)
Oh, as long as you still think of me
Oh, oh-oh
(Backburner, backburner)

[VERSE 1]
You left without saying goodbye (Fuck, fuck, fuck)
Don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry
I ball a fist and die inside
I wish I didn’t, but regrettably I entirely understand why you did it

[PRE 1]
Take one step forward and two jumps back
One hand on the gate of this cul-de-sac
Some cursed part of me wants to be cornered right into it even if we crack
You left early and you arrived too late
Just right in time to be a huge mistake
So I wish you well and I wish you far away
This was never real – I’ll say it til I believe it

[CHORUS 1]
I wish I never met you
You are the worst thing that I’m still keeping tabs on for some stupid reason
You were just being nice
Now I fully believe you’re out there somewhere also keeping tabs on how I might be feeling

[POST 1]
For some stupid reason
I keep on believing
You care and you’re reeling too
I don’t even know you

[VERSE 2]
Drowning in my own
Sad, imagined fantasy of who you could be
The reality is you
Unironically love personality tests
All of the data’s weak, half-amusing at best
but it could never work cause I’m an Enneatype 4 Aquarius

[PRE 2]
You say the wrong thing every time you talk
The red flags wave, the alarms sound off
I’m so glad our paths didn’t cross
I’m so glad – I’ll say it ‘til I believe it

[CHORUS 2]
I wish I never met you
You are the worst thing that I’m still keeping tabs on for some stupid reason
You’re the same with everyone
I’m not special, no
You’re not out there just keeping tabs on how I might be feeling

[POST 2]
That’s all just imagined
I keep on believing
You care and you miss me too
I need to get over you, oh
I need to get over you

The apartment we won’t share
I wonder what sad wife lives there
Have the windows deciphered her stares?
Do the bricks in the walls know to hide the affairs?

The dog we won’t have is now one I would not choose
The daughter we won’t raise still waits for you
The girl I won’t be is the one that’s yours
I hope you shortly find what you long for

Two years and some change
Isn’t it strange?
You’re a full-fledged socialist,
I go by a new name

The filthy joke that won’t
burrow in the corner of your
smirking lips, I mourn it to this day

The story we won’t tell
is my greatest fantasy
The passion I won’t feel again
isn’t lost on me

The son you never wanted
is the wound your father left
And the mother I won’t be is
probably for the best

Your demons I won’t meet
Now someone else’s word to keep
I’m sure she’s beautiful and sweet
Not what I wanted, but what we need

Wonder what’s in the cards for us
Maybe it’s just to keep our distance and stay friends on Facebook
or maybe I’ll get to know you again and tell a sentence from a single look

I don’t know what you’ve been up to these days
Probably involves a lot of vinyl and seeking status
I can’t spare the bitter malice
Not while you’re forgetting me (Not while you’re forgetting me)

But in the rare case that I do cross your mind
I hope you know, you always cross mine
And I can honestly tell you I’ve been doing fine, but I’ve done better
I’ve been better, I’ve been better

I wish we met now
Oh, I wish you met this me
I’m pretty sure I know what peace means now
But as always, I was late
And as always you couldn’t wait
Well, anyway

In the rare case that I do cross your mind,
you better know you always cross mine
And I can honestly tell you that I’ve really been trying to go and find better
But there’s no one better
There’s no one better

Some days are easier than others
And most nights, I don’t feel like a half
and it doesn’t hurt as much to think of your lips on another,
but I miss hearing you laugh
So maybe once more we’ll cross paths
or maybe we won’t

Either way I’ll keep you in this song
and I don’t know, maybe it doesn’t have to be so wrong to try again
but for now, we’ll stay Facebook friends

[VERSE 1]
If I could, I’d freeze this moment, make it my home
You’re all I want to want to know
I can tell you mean it when you kiss me slow
But please don’t ask me, the answer’s no

[VERSE 2]
In a perfect world, I’d kill to love you the loudest
But all I do is live to hurt you soundless
Say you see I’m lying babe and let this go
I can never promise you tomorrow

[PRE 1]
‘Cause I have yet to learn how not to be his
This city will surely burn if we keep this as it is

[CHORUS 1]
But I’d give anything to stop time
And drive around Anaheim at sun down
And teach my mind to put you first
Here you are, a hero
You wanna be my new home
But baby, let up, I won’t ever recognize these roads
‘Cause I am lost, but not in you
Yes, I am lost, but not in you

[VERSE 3]
I could spend my days studying your laugh’s melody
And I can’t live with myself cause I know you’d die for me
Oh, all I ask of you is please don’t sleep
on this bed of promises I can’t keep

[PRE 2]
Cause I have yet to know how to be mine
You can try to unearth this soul,
I swear you’ll hate what you find

Oooh
Oooh

[CHORUS 2]
But I’d give anything to stop time,
Commit to you and not crimes
Against your truth and lose sight of every divide threatening to undo this story
But baby, I’m so sorry
I don’t think that I’ll ever memorize this route
‘Cause I am lost, but not in you
Yes, I am lost, but not in you

Oooh
Oooh
Oooh

[VERSE 1]
Morning seeps through the blinds
and joins us in bed
and you stir in your sleep
There goes fear embedding

What if I make you pancakes
But you choose to skip breakfast?
What if when you’re fully awake,
You come to your senses?

Hours pass on the hood of your car
So little is said
I wait for your arms
But you give your jacket instead

Am I at your disposal?
You tell me I’m nice
But I know I’m only the hostel
till there’s a house that you like

It hasn’t been long since the first kiss goodnight
Said I stole your heart, you called me a thief
This love’s but a newborn, so why does it bite?
It hasn’t even lost all its milk teeth
So why are you already anxious to leave?

I know soon enough we’ll come apart at the seams
But just one empty kiss and it’s not as bad as it seems
We breathe for different reasons, both as petty, I’d reckon
You for your “Well done”s, and me for your welcome

It hasn’t been long since the first kiss goodnight
Said I stole your heart, you called me a thief
This love’s but a newborn so why does it bite
It hasn’t even lost all its milk teeth
So why are you already anxious to leave?

So why are you already anxious to leave?

I carved my name into your ribcage
We talked of lands away from this cage
You said, don’t fret love, someday I’ll be my own man, I’ll be free
Oh, but darling did you mean
Darling, did you mean free from me?

You promised home
The kind I’d never known, oh
But here we are, skin and flesh and beating hearts
and I’m wondering what the hell I’m doing wrong
You said, “Let’s make ourselves our very own brigade, this love our shield, our blade”
Oh, but darling do you see the cuts from which I bleed?
It’s me you’ve slain

I didn’t obliterate these walls for you to come and raid my home
And here you are right next to me
Ironically, I’ve never felt more alone

I fell for you faster than I fell apart
And I guess I’m the one to blame for letting myself fall too hard
I ripped my heart out and put it in your hands in hopes that we’d put up a fight
How paradoxical, since now all I can think about is when will we stop trying
Ooh

Oooh, how do we stay afloat
When do I let go?

All you do is blindside me, it’s hard to be brave
But when the night cuts into the day, it’s your love I crave
I must’ve thanked my lucky stars too much,
they left me sitting in too much dust

You know all my dreams
You were one, so it seemed
And I love you but with you
It’s heartache I breathe
You gave it your all, just with everything you took from me

Oh, my love
Is this the end for us?
Maybe we’ve had enoughI carved my name into your ribcage
We talked of lands away from this cage
You said, “Don’t fret love, someday I’ll be my own man, I’ll be free”
Oh, but darling did you mean
Darling, did you mean free from me?

You promised home
The kind I’d never known, oh
But here we are, skin and flesh and beating hearts
and I’m wondering what the hell I’m doing wrong
You said, “Let’s make ourselves our very own brigade, this love our shield, our blade”
Oh, but darling do you see the cuts from which I bleed?
It’s me you’ve slain

I didn’t obliterate these walls for you to come and raid my home
And here you are right next to me
Ironically, I’ve never felt more alone

I fell for you faster than I fell apart
And I guess I’m the one to blame for letting myself fall too hard
I ripped my heart out and put it in your hands in hopes that we’d put up a fight
How paradoxical, since now all I can think about is when will we stop trying
Ooh

Oooh, how do we stay afloat?
When do I let go?

All you do is blindside me, it’s hard to be brave
But when the night cuts into the day, it’s your love I crave
I must’ve thanked my lucky stars too much,
they left me sitting in too much dust

You know all my dreams
You were one, so it seemed
And I love you but with you
It’s heartache I breathe
You gave it your all, just with everything you took from me

Oh, my love
Is this the end for us?
Maybe we’ve had enough

[Verse 1]
Saturday sunset, we’re lying on my bed with five hours to go
Fingers entwined and so were our minds crying, “I don’t want you to go”
You wiped away tears but not fears under the still and clear indigo
You said, “Baby don’t cry, we’ll be fine, you’re the one thing I swear I can’t outgrow”

[Verse 2]
My mother said the younger me was a ‘Pretending’ prodigy well nothing, then, much has changed
Cause while you’re wolfing down liquor, my soul it gets sicker, but I’m stickin’ to the screenplay, gotta say I’m okay,
but answer this babe:
How is it now that somehow you’re a stranger?
You were mine just yesterday
I pray the block in my airway dissipates and instead deters your airplane’s way

[Pre-Chorus 1]
But heaven denied
Destiny decried
Something beautiful died too soon

[Chorus]
But I’m letting go
I’m giving up the ghost
But don’t get me wrong,
I’ll always love you, that’s why I wrote you this very last song
I guess this is where we say goodbye
I know I’ll be alright
Someday I’ll be fine,
but just not tonight

[Verse 3]
Plunging into all kinds of diversions like blush wine and sonorous soirées
But even with gin and surgin’ adrenaline, I see you’re all that can intoxicate
Oceans and engines, you’re skilled at infringing on great love affairs
Cause now my heart’s home, all I’ve known, is long gone and ten thousand miles away

[Pre-Chorus 2]
And I’m not okay

[Chorus]
But I’m letting go
I’m giving up the ghost
But don’t get me wrong
I’ll always love you, that’s why I wrote you this very last song
I guess this is where we say goodbye
I know I’ll be alright
But just not –

[Bridge]
Tonight was the first time I stared into seas of beguiling sepia two years ago
And the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words, they revitalized my fraying bones, oh
Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down, you’ve lost all solid ground, both dreams and demons drowned, and this void’s all you’ve found and doubts light it aglow?
I have so many questions
But I’m pouring them into the ocean and I’m starting up my engine

[Chorus]
And I’m letting go
I’m giving up your ghost
It’s come to a close
I marked the end with this last song I wrote
I’m letting go
This is the last falsetto
I’ll ever sing to you my great, lost love

Love, keep your eyes on the road
Cause when I stare all I see is two foggy windows to a lost soul
And maybe, maybe it’s all my fault
that it’s so quiet on the drive home

Babe, can I build my home in your mind?
A disheveled maze, constellated and intertwined
But somehow, my favorite kind
And my favorite view
when it untangles in the moonlight

Darling, we’re getting older
In less than eight months, you’ll wash tear stains off of your shoulder
And drenched in alcohol and conceit,
the cold-blooded bodies, quick on their feet
will tell you how to earn your stripes

And you’ll be listening while
I sit here with glistening eyes
As the stripes on my back chip and dry
You won’t be listening to my cries
Anymore

Oooh
Oooh

And we’ll be two pieces of driftwood
Floating in a sea of missed calls and excuses
And your home will change into four walls and a mini fridge
Instead of four limbs and lips to kiss

But for now, the night is young
And you are here and Snow Patrol just came on the radio
So darling, let’s take
Darling, let’s take the long way home

Oooh
Oooh
Oooh

Love, keep your eyes on the road

His laugh you’d die for
His laugh you’d die for
The kind that colors the sky
Heart intangible, slips away faster than dandelion fluff in the sunlight
And he’s got swirls of passion in his eyes
Uncovering the dreams he dreams at night
As much and hard as he tries to hide,
I can see right through
See right through

His voice you’d melt for
He says my name like I’d fade away somehow if he’s too loud
What I would give for me to get my feet back on the ground, head off the clouds
I laugh at how were polar opposites
I read him like a book and he’s a clueless little kid
Doesn’t know that I’d stop time and space
Just to make him smile, make him smile

Oh, why can’t we for once say what we want, say what we feel?
Oh, why can’t you for once, disregard the world and run to what you know is real?
Take a chance with me
Take a chance with me

His kiss you’d kill for
Just one and you’re done for
Electricity surging in the air
He drives me crazy, it’s so beyond me how he’d look me dead in the eye and stay unaware

That I’m hopelessly captivated
By a boy who thinks love’s overrated
How did I get myself in this arrangement it baffles me too, baffles me too

Oh, why can’t we for once, say what we want, say what we feel?
Oh, why can’t you for once, disregard the world and run to what you know is real?

In the end, we only regret the chances we didn’t take
I’ll be your safety net, so why not raise the stakes?
And I can hear your heart from across the room, pulsing through my veins
I know you need this too, lie to me all you please
I can see right through, see right through

Oh, why can’t we for once, say what we want, say what we feel?
Oh, why can’t you for once, disregard the world and run to what you know is real?
Oh, why can’t we for once, say what we want, say what we feel?
Oh, why can’t you for once, disregard the world and run to what you know is real?
Take a chance with me
Take a chance with me

Oooh

Moonchild

Are you lost little girl?
Where’s your mama? (Good Grief!!)
Skin thick as bricks
Was it karma? How old are ya?
Watch your back, watch your step, watch your weight, watch your words too
They’ll come at you with their teeth
and their rhinestone-covered sheaths

Word of warning:
Straighten up.
Tie your shoelaces up
There’s never time to warm up when the jungle cools down
It’s a god damn cornucopia
of your serpents and your scorpions
When you fall asleep baby, keep an eye wide open, hmm
Keep an eye wide open, hmm

All the wolves lick your cuts clad in Prada
with white grins, and tight grips,
blood oaths and loose lips,
smokin stardust

mm

Act like some pilgrims,
sing like some psalmists,
Kiss like its harmless,
I hope you listen,
there’re too many demons
So girl don’t you give in
to all of the voices around you saying you can spread your wings only if you spread those legs first, huh
That’s the bread and butter of this place.

Bitches with butterknives at the ready to spread the word to save their pretty face
So let these words be your saving grace
There’s a much longer trail to blaze
And it’s ours.

(so straighten up!)

Kamikaze
don’t get sloppy,
don’t get sloppy, mm

(so straighten up!)

and keep an eye wide open, mm
keep an eye wide open, mm

VERSE
This is looking like I might just wanna stay
Can’t remember much about yesterday
Ground is glowing, I’m slowing my stride with
every step
(Take a good look at it girl,
take a good look at this world, ah)

Electric rivers flow by the silhouette trees
We skinny dip and soak in all of our past dreams
And all my new friends dazzle like they’re royals
(Take a good look at it girl,
take a good look at this world, ah)

PRE CHORUS 1
What is this place?
The skies are vast and no one’s a familiar face
but I’m not afraid…

CHORUS
Kinda feeling brave!
The winds of change have nothing on this
switchblade faith
I’ll take it to my grave
Ooh, ooh, ooh

VERSE 2
The night is young and it’s wild
I’m running free like a child
on the crown of a mountain and I could keep
goin’ for miles
I don’t know what’s coming next
I feel a buzz in my legs
But heaven knows that I’m quick on my feet
and
good with a blade and some old-fashioned
faith in a place like this

PC 2
Feeling bulletproof and far from faces I don’t miss
So many brand new risks to take

CHORUS
And I’m feeling brave!
The winds of change have nothing on this
switchblade faith
I’ll take it to my grave
Ooh, ooh, ooh

TAG/OUTRO (x2)
Lining’s silver
Grass is greener
And I’m on my way

Brightest flicker
Ain’t no quitter
I’ll be here to stay

Lining’s silver
Grass is greener
And I’m not afraid
Cause I’m running with a switchblade

HOOK
Nobody sleeps in this land of mine
(of mine, of mine)
Nobody sleeps, nobody keeps track of time
(of time)
Nightcrawlers springing up left and right
(all night, all night)
Child of the moon, oh but very soon you will
shine, shine, shine, shine

VERSE 1
I gotchu salty coz you see me living out my
sweetest dreams (yuh)
I‘d say take it up with the Man on the Moon
but that would be me (yuh)
Sleeping on cloud number nine,
All of my friends by my side,
Nothing to hide, nothing to lose,
I’m on the loose
Bet you my bottom and top dollar second you
get here you‘d love it here too
This is the coveted land for both heroes and
fools
Zero in rules, zeroes and jewels
We’re just all liberty-drunk, stupid and young,
but we always pull through

Like oooh

Mama taught me don’t forget your manners
but truth be told nothing really matters
We don’t really think about the after
We just run like hell til we’re cadavers
Live moment to moment, paycheck to
paycheck
We’re the nightcrawlers!
We’re the nightcrawlers!
Ah ah ah

HOOK
Nobody sleeps in this land of mine
(of mine, of mine)
Nobody sleeps, nobody keeps track of time
(of time)
Nightcrawlers springing up left and right
(all night, all night)
Child of the moon, oh but very soon you will
shine, shine, shine, shine

(BEAT SWITCH. REPEAT HOOK)

VERSE 2
Really shouldn’t get too close dontcha get cozy
Hate to burst your bubble but you really don’t
know me
Everybody falls down ringin’ round the Rosie
Once I owned myself now everybody wanna
own me
Mama taught me don’t forget your manners
But most of all don’t forget your standards
Open your door but don’t share where you
sleep
Coz this is where the black sheep eat

(HOOK)

VERSE 1
She’s taken over
She’s making me want your body closer
Having a little trouble staying sober
And she’s got us all under her trance

Oh she’s elusive (I know)
She only rises with the music
And all of my dreams they’re growing lucid
That’s how you know she’s up to dance,
to dance, to dance, to dance

PC 1
And now she’s taking over me,
a new notch on her belt, yeah
and your face gleams like a prophecy,
I might just lose myself

HOOK
And I couldn’t care less (uh)
I couldn’t care less, baby
Feeling just a little careless lately
Push me back and pull me under (ah-ah)
She got me possessed (uh)
Now, I’m looking to get hasty
And I just want your body pressed against me
Take me down to lift me high,
take me down to lift me high
Higher, higher, ooh!

VERSE 2
White flames on her torch, they’re licking on
the air tonight (uh)
Chariot skid marks all over the gravel behind
my eyes
Take my hand coz when this ends, I run
No-man’s-land sounds like a woman’s fun
We got all night long,
Oh wontcha give it to me, give it to me, ah

PC 2
And oh she’s bubbling up again, and I do as
I’m told
Maybe losing all my self-control…

HOOK
And I couldn’t care less (uh)
I couldn’t care less, baby
Feeling just a little careless lately
Push me back and pull me under (ah-ah)
She got me possessed (uh)
Now, I’m looking to get hasty
And I just want your body pressed against me
Take me down to lift me high,
take me down to lift me high
Higher, higher, ooh!

OUTRO
Higher, higher, ooh!
Higher, higher, ooh!
Take me down to lift me high
Take me down to lift me high
Higher, higher, ooh!

VERSE 1
Tide is high, moon is drunk
Vessels sailed, sailors sunk
Waves of sound, sea of sharks
Catch you off your guppy guard

VERSE 2
Glossy lips, lavish lies
Before you trust anybody think twice
Harpoon hands warm you fast
Hook you smooth while they pat you on the back

PRE
Tear you at the seams
They don’t ever seem to flinch
So here on out (here on out)
Hold your own (hold your own),
Stand up tall (stand up tall)
Make it known (make it known)
You won’t fall for it ever again

VERSE 3
Never again fallin in traps
Swim into nets, I’ll slip through the cracks
Bring on the storm, bring on the tide
Never back down, you’ll see me rise

Always alert, always aware
Always keep track of who’s there
Always keep track of who cares
So many sharks here beware

While you try to win everyone else
You’re doing it losing, you’re losing yourself
Don’t get distracted, don’t get compelled
Don’t let em capsize your health

Whether it’s west, whether it’s east
Whether alone or together with fleets
Bring on the night, bring on the tide
Bring on the- bring on the- bring on the-

(TRANSITION)

VERSE 1
Smoke puffs are white and piling
This head feels like an island
I am my own asylum
Their stares are beady but I don’t mind
Let ’em take their time
coz there ain’t no new light to shed, no, no

PC 1
Pandemonium calms me down like an ocean,
oh (an ocean, oh)
And I’m kissing pillow lips, drunk off saccharine
potions, oh
and nothing really matters

CHORUS
Cause everybody here is dying (mm)
Dying out in slow motion (mm)
And everybody here is lying, lying,
silently detonating emotions

VERSE 2
Read the spaces between the lines
Mind your own business while I grow mine
No it’s never personal,
Maybe that’s the problem
We loosen up every rung on the ladder
Serve up a smile on a silver platter
No one needs a pillar, just a painkiller or two

CHORUS
Cause everybody here is dying (mm)
Dying out in slow motion (mm)
And everybody here is lying, lying,
silently detonating emotions

VERSE 3
We’re dying in the dark
It’s written there in the stars
You’re understood by so little and loved only
from afar

And counting blessings is hard
I don’t quite know where to start
The gold is new, but the gray,
well that’s just state of the art,
and bottoms up to skeletons all bottled up
Always going when the going gets too tough,
oh

CHORUS
Cause everybody here is dying (mm)
Dying out in slow motion (mm)
And everybody here is lying, lying,
silently detonating emotions
(x2)

Cause everybody here is dying

VERSE 1
I will never know if you love me
or my company, but I don’t mind
Coz I ain’t tryna be the one
Been through this a thousand times
I don’t need to take your heart,
You keep yours, I’ll keep mine

All I really know is when I’m lonely
I hate that I’m lonely,
and that’s why I let you in,
and maybe in another life
we fight all day, kiss all night
But I don’t wanna break your heart,
you keep yours, I’ll keep mine

PC 1
I know
we know better so,
we’d both better go

CHORUS
I don’t need a reason
To keep on dreamin’
that we don’t lose, yeah what’s the use?
I don’t need a reason
To keep on dreamin’, oh
That we can win at anything at all

VERSE 2
Am I the only one who sees right through this?
Yeah all this bullshit, don’t play me for no fool
Yeah you don’t gotta lose your mind,
every time I don’t call
and I should never have to win your love
then hate myself when I don’t, oh, oh

Fickle as you are, that’s exactly why I keep on running back

coz I’m brittle at the parts where I wish I were strong
And maybe when you need my help,
I like myself when it’s over
but later in the light, you go dark and rogue,
and I need closure

PC 2
and I know,
whatever this is ain’t love
So I’m goin’.
I’m gonna let you go, let you go

HOOK
I don’t need a reason
To keep on dreamin’
that we don’t lose, yeah what’s the use?
I don’t need a reason
To keep on dreamin’
that I can win this stupid thing called love

HOOK
Nothing stays the same and
Seasons keep on changin’ as they do…

VERSE 1
Look what we got
A thickening plot
Just when I started getting used to
the thought

of closing the book,
there you were, in every nook,
of every word, every page
and now I wanna stay and wait, ‘cause

PC 1
Met every comma, every question mark
Bored of how all of the chapters start
But you feel like a brand new arc
(that I never knew, oh)
I’d like to think I know a thing or two
Like every day the sky’s a different blue
And then along came you, oh,
Guess

HOOK
Nothing stays the same and
Seasons keep on changin’ as they do
and we’re all still just
Stories above concrete
X amount of heartbeats, so
Thank god for plot twists like you!
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

VERSE 2
Where have you been
All of my life?
It’s all growin’ dim, now
that you’ve come to light

And who could’ve known,
who would’ve thought,
between the wishbones and dot dot dots
there was always gonna be you and I
and now

PC 2
I’m dancing barefoot in the open streets
Hangin’ onto every word you speak
coz you keep me at the edge of my seat
(with your every move, oh)
I’d like to think I know a thing or two
Like every story ending’s tried-and-true
And then along came you

HOOK
Nothing stays the same and
Seasons keep on changin’ as they do
and we’re all still just
Stories above concrete
X amount of heartbeats, so
Thank god for plot twists like you!
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

TAG
(Who could’ve imagined,
Who could’ve imagined you?
Who could’ve imagined,
Who could’ve imagined you?)

VERSE
If there’s nothing left,
if there’s nothing left, I have you
If there’s nothing left,
if there’s nothing left, you have me too, oh

And screams will turn to whispers over time
That’s alright, that’s fine with me
coz I’ll still have all of your smile,
I couldn’t care less bout the silence
If there’s nothing, I got fight left in me

PC 1
When splendor turns to shame
When they erase our names
God knows that one thing remains…
Oh, and they say,
“No man is an island,
There’s shipwrecks and sirens”
But you’re my, you’re my horizon, so

CHORUS
Hold your breath and hold on for dear love
(dear love, dear love, dear love)
Blue and black all over but you know we’re gold

PC 2
Where passion meets insane
Where pleasure kisses pain
That’s where you’ll find me
And if oceans roar and strike,
If heaven lost its light,
I’m always on your side, so

CHORUS
Hold your breath and hold on for dear love
(dear love, dear love, dear love)
Blue and black all over but you know we’re
gold

TAG
Hold on (hold on, love)
Hold on (hold on for love)
Hold on (hold on, love)
Hold on (hold on for us, for love)

The blades are dull now
The armour’s dented
The water’s cold and still, like us

We shiver badly
Our teeth are chattering
But it’s not out of fear this time

Coz the beasts have scattered!
Our story stains the ground
The bloodbath’s over now,
So drive on, mm
Drive on, on, on

When the tide’s low, the rubble’s high
We only grow when the light rises,
in new horizons, so
When you go left, hope you see right
It might be dark so turn your headlights,
headlights on,
And drive on, mm
Drive on, on, on
So drive on

Oh, children of the moon
May we grow, oh may we bloom
And don’t look back,
the future looks like you and me,
so we

Drive on, mm
Drive on, on, on
Drive on, mm
Drive on, on, on
So drive on

wanna take this downtown?

Wonder what I’ll do when the cops come through and the whiskey’s run out
coz I’ve been lookin at you since half past 2, wanna take this downtown?
This liquid courage
got me way too honest
Put your phone on vibrate,
let’s catch a vibe babe while the sun’s down

Hush now, I know we’re a little too fucked up to stay still, love
Be as quiet as you can cause if anyone sees they’ll just blow shit up
I don’t gotta know if you’re taken
I’ll just letcha know bedroom’s vacant
No one’s gotta know, just us and the moon ’til the sun starts wakin—

Up’s the only direction I see…
As long as we keep this

HOOK
Low low low low low low low low key
You ain’t even gotta lo lo lo lo lo lo lo love me
Us in a king size, keep it a secret
Say I’m your queen, I don’t wanna leave this
low low low low low low low key

Wizard with words, tellin’ me my energy’s so bewitchin
So I’ll go first, there’s an open bar, let’s close this distance
O-o-o-o-oh my, don’t make me have to spell it a-a-a-a-all night

I don’t really give a fuck ‘bout all the “he said, she said” bullshit
So pick your poison love, let’s go somewhere a little more exclusive
Take a shot, take a chance, take my hand boy
Tension so intense like an asteroid
Be discreet, gotta dodge all the tabloids

Let’s not think too much, there ain’t no problems
So long as we keep this

HOOK
Low low low low low low low low key
You ain’t even gotta lo lo lo lo lo lo lo love me
Us in a king size, keep it a secret
Say I’m your queen, I don’t wanna leave this
low low low low low low low key

Slick wit, lip lick, and
we sleep in our skin
Fast as I give in (right into you)

Too deep, too fast, too
now I can’t move til you
call and tell me to

PRE CHORUS
Now it’s all guessing games, I’m guessing every gaze
like do you, don’t you, would you even stay…
if you did?
all I know is suddenly without you the bed feels too big…

HOOK
Tryna find where your head is
but I’m losing myself in the process,
you’re bad for my health
All the goodnights— are they hidden goodbyes in disguise, I never know
You come see me only when I ask first
When you kiss me, do you wish it were her?
The best at being the worst
but fucksake, I’m already urs, mm
Sad to say, I’m already urs, oh

Half past midnight your
half-assed texts make sure
I keep crawlin back for more

Know you didn’t, but I’m hoping you lost your phone
Prolly with her but I’ll act like I didn’t know
I can’t let it show I want nothing more than to call you up

PRE CHORUS
so instead I’ll just call your bluff like
Fuck this charade, enough is enough, but no
Stick around even if it’s just for the temporary show…

HOOK
Tryna find where your head is but I’m losing myself
in the process, you’re bad for my health
All the good nights— are they hidden goodbyes in disguise, I never know
You come see me only when I ask first
When you kiss me, do you wish it were her?
The best at being the worst
but fucksake I’m already urs, mm
Sad to say, I’m already urs, oh

Maybe it’s the way that
You make me wanna lay back
If I can put the blame on the state of my mind
Wasn’t supposed to stay, I can’t say that I tried

There’s something in the water
That makes me wanna wantcha
If I can put the blame on the weight of my mind
Open up a case and I’m already blind

Oh I’m way too unpredictable
I can’t be held responsible for nothing
And all my crimes have been committed
Already got me so addicted say I’m bluffing

There’s something in the way you make me
move, oooh
Something in the way you make me, ooh, oooh
Baby when you love me like you do, dooo
There’s something in the way you make me…
Something in the way you make me…
Oooh

Want you when I’m talking
In every conversation
Coz I can’t get the sound of your name off my lips
Said a little more than I’d like to admit

There’s something in the water
That makes me love you harder
Coz you know the longer I play innocent
The less that I wanna resist

Oh I’m way too unpredictable
I can’t be held responsible for nothing
And all my crimes have been committed
Already got me so addicted say I’m bluffing

But there’s something in the way you make me move, oooh
Something in the way you make me, ooh, oooh
Baby when you love me like you do, dooo
There’s something in the way you make me…
Something in the way you make me…
Oooh

This has got to be a joke
The universe fuckin hates my guts
reminding me “U” and “I” dont spell us

We share different postal codes
maybe that’s why I never got the memo
She’s the real deal and I was just a pretty demo

And yet my world remains the whole of you to this day
Doesn’t matter what my location says
I’m always tryna get to you

but shit just happens all the time

HOOK
When I’m there you’re not
you’re here, I’m caught up with my job
and your clingy ex comes back a lot
then she leaves and you shoot your shot but there’s someone new I’ve got
and the cycle never stops no, no
but there’s nobody else I want oh, oh
don’t care how long it takes, my heart is yours to break
I’m never giving up against all odds


You’re the mind-game mastermind
but what I’d give to make that mind mine to lose
oh, yeah
coz I know you’ve got somebody
my friends say I could have anybody now that I’m somebody
but I don’t care if I’m nobody to you

I know it’s pathetic but I couldn’t care less
I’d wait until the stars uncross and say yes
I’ll always try to get you
Oooh!

HOOK
When I’m there you’re not
you’re here, I’m caught up with my job
and your clingy ex comes back a lot
then she leaves and you shoot your shot but there’s someone new I’ve got
and the cycle never stops no, no
but there’s nobody else I want oh, oh
don’t care how long it takes, my heart is yours to break
I’m never giving up against all odds

Never in my damn favor
I don’t want you for later
Never was much of a waiter
But I’d wait on you to drink you in
Guess it serves me right for even thinking

When I’m there you should…
I don’t know, like, call up your boss
Probably take the day off
Maybe we could change the odds

HOOK
When I’m there you’re not
you’re here, I’m caught up with my job
and your clingy ex comes back a lot
then she leaves and you shoot your shot but there’s someone new I’ve got
and the cycle never stops no, no
but there’s nobody else I want oh, oh
don’t care how long it takes, my heart is yours to break
I’m never giving up against all odds

Zephyr

Pretty girls all around ya
Foolin around ya
Makin you a fool all around, ya
Pretty unsurprising honestly you’re no conundrum
I heard from Nina, Jenny, Lisa, Chrissy and Cassandra

I ain’t interested in being a pretty name on your list
I got dreams and aspirations with prettier lips to kiss
My mama ain’t give up all hers so I’d be somebody’s tryst
When somebody’s got a miss

Waiting at home
Calling her sister
“I swear this one loves me”
She knew when you first kissed her

HOOK:
Go be someone else’s hangover
You only intoxicate a for a second before we’d all wake up mistake-makin legends
For the last time no I ain’t coming over
I ain’t got business witchu, I ain’t got nothing to prove
There’s no lower I’d ever stoop to
Newsflash!
I can do better than you

Lay bitches down proud & smugly
I’ll lay down the ugly:
I’d roll in my grave twice ‘fore you touch me
How you look her in the eye and say ‘I love you baby’
Baby so shady extra shade ain’t even necessary
What part of you don’t get to have me do you not understand?
I never ever take my boys or corduroys secondhand
What kind of world you livin’ in Alice, this ain’t Wonderland
You are not in demand
Don’t it get tiring
Leaving so many bruises
Instead of another bitch, try undressing your excuses
Oh and

HOOK:
Go be someone else’s hangover
You only intoxicate a for a second
before we’d all wake up mistake-makin’ legends
For the last time no I ain’t coming over
I ain’t got business witchu
I ain’t got nothing to prove
There’s no lower I’d ever stoop to
newsflash!
I can do better than u

BRIDGE:
firecracker women left and right
no that don’t make it right
that you be in their sheets all night
while she’s back home doin only right by you
mr casanova won’t u save your intrigue
and all your techniques
you think you sleek
but i’m smart and very very out of your league

so bye!
have a good week

HOOK:
and go be someone else’s hangover
You only intoxicate a for a second
before we’d all wake up mistake-makin legends
For the last time no I ain’t coming over
I ain’t got business witchu
I ain’t got nothing to prove
There’s no lower I’d ever stoop to
newsflash!
I can do better than you

Drop the ammunition boy
You don’t gotta raise your voice
I know other ways we’d be making noise
Do you or you do me babe it’s your choice

Soon as we get into the room
I know just what you like, I know just what to do
Got that Sin-atra look to you
so baby come fly me to the moon

Love,
shut the fuck up and go shut the door
Give you what you know you’re wishing for
if you just

Say my, say my, say my name boy
Say my, say my, say my name boy
Say my, say my, say my name boy
Cause there’s only one that says it like you
Say my, say my, say my name boy
Say my, say my, say my name boy
Say my, say my, say my name boy
Cause there’s only one that says it like you

Go yell and fire away
I’ll just roll my eyes and wait
too much pride to say you’re sorry
just heat it up like Kalahari

so baby
oooh
Can this battle just be over
shrink the space between come closer
If you just

[HOOK]

Love,
Aint gotta be so dramatic with all your tactics
Let’s make magic

If you, if you, if you just

[HOOK]

[VERSE I]
Drinking till like 5 in the morning
I should prolly head back
Empty promises in my wallet
Love that I can’t pay back

You trade my promises for your feelings
We’ve gone too far to turn back
My mind could run a mile on the ceiling
But I shouldn’t live like that

[PRE]
Is this real or is it just a phase?
Will the pressure be enough to break
We should fuck now I feel like we cant
your hands glued to my waist
Should I ignore your call
When you ring my phone in the middle of the night
Thinking to myself
At the end of the day….

[HOOK]
We were better off as friends
It’s not you, I do this all the time
We should try to Coexist
Should have never even crossed the line
(I do this everytime)

[VERSE II]
Oooo
Give me love, Give me love
I’m the cause, your a drug
It’s because we
Fucked up
Flicked the trust
Like the butt
Of a cigarette
Look in your eyes
This don’t feel like a friendship

Sold you dreams
There you were in my hands
Your excited
And I’m feeling the same way
Sip your drink, I don’t know what I’m saying
I swear I’m tripping, oh

[PRE]
Is this real or is it just a phase?
Will the pressure be enough to break
We should fuck but I feel like we cant
My hands glued to your waist
Should I ignore your call
When you ring my phone in the middle of the night
Thinking to myself
At the end of the day….

[HOOK]

[BRIDGE]
Can’t fall in love with somebody like you
I’m not meant for somebody like you
I don’t think this boat is for two, two

[HOOK]

Slow
come and kiss me slow
No I don’t have to go
Show me all there is to know

All of the lights are down
But I see right through you dear
It’s silent as we trade mouths
But I hear you loud and clear

I know you don’t fall and tell
But darling I know you too well
You don’t think that heaven’s real
So I love you til it hurts like hell (til it hurts like hell)

Deep
Bury your love deep
You can plant your trust in me
I lay down your little bricks where you thought you were gonna have to lead

You don’t even have to try
I’ll stay through mighty sweet
Oh, you say all the stakes are high
Well baby that’s why we’ve got wings

I know you don’t fall and tell
But darling I know you too well
You don’t think that heaven’s real
So I love you til it hurts like hell (til god breaks this spell)

Til god breaks this spell…
Til god breaks this spell…
Til god breaks this spell…
Ooh, til god breaks this spell…
Til god breaks this spell…

VERSE 1
Speak of the devil, my oh my
Walk in with that devilish smile
That’s one thing I haven’t seen in a while
(In a while)

How have you been since I called you mine?
You look so good in this light
Got me reminiscin ‘bout our good times
(Good ol’ times)

PRE 1
And I know, I know, I know
we’ve been better off alone
But we laugh about old pictures on your phone
and I forget, oh


and you make you make you make
it easy like a zephyr
You’re still just the way I remember
Tonight I just wanna hit reverse


HOOK
Been a year since we finished
Baby me and you we vintage
but tonight you make me miss it
and I just wanna dance with you like


It’s summer 1976
Raise my heart rate like it’s interest
Jog my memory on your kisses
For old time’s sake, you got me singin


Ah, ah x3
Got me singin
Ah, ah x3
Got me dreamin


VERSE 2
Still as charismatic as ever
Comebacks come back clean and clever
Why we ended, I don’t remember
Can’t believe I once said ‘See U Never’

Wait a minute, my head’s a mess
Please don’t tell me you like my dress
Why am I wishin’ we were wearing less
Won’t be long before ‘no’ becomes ‘yes’


PRE 2
And you know you know you know
all the ways to get to me
As if there were an easy recipe
A bit of hard-to-get, a dash of sweet

So I say, I say, we pay
tribute to our history
Only reenactin, no repeats
Here we go again, imma handle you with care like you’re antique


HOOK
Been a year since we finished
Baby me and you, we vintage
but tonight you make me miss it
and I just wanna dance with you like


It’s summer 1976
Raise my heart rate like it’s interest
Jog my memory on your kisses
For old time’s sake, you got me singing

Ah, ah x3
Got me singin’
Ah, ah x3
Got me dreamin’

Wide awake at 2 A.M
Think I’m losing who I am
Why you keep on choosing them
When all I’m tryna do is make sure you got a nice bed and welcoming arms to come home to
But time and time and time again
You’re only here every now and then
When’s it gonna end?

People say I’m
All the kinds of crazy cause I’m crazy for you
They say how you love a ghost you can’t touch
They ain’t wrong but I just love you too much

So go and call a GP hand me the receipt
Baby say I’m too freaky underneath the sheets

Oh my god, I’m so gone
I’m dancing with the devil with my high heels on, on
Unapologetic ’bout it

‘Cause the lovin’ so good, though i know baby’s no good
Yeah the lovin’ so good, if I could stop it, I would
Yeah the lovin’ so good ’cause we up to no good
But the lovin’ so good

The other day your mamma called
She told me all in all
I was the best you’ll ever have and that you won’t commit a crime bigger than giving me up
And I know that she aint wrong
And I know someday a better man will come along
But your lips got me saying let bygones be bygones
I don’t wanna fucking move on

Boy why am I so crazy for you
You’re so talented in not coming home
But if it ain’t you I’d rather be alone

SOS situation
Can’t say no to temptation

Oh my god, I’m so gone
I’m dancing with the devil with my high heels on, on
Unapologetic ’bout it

‘Cause the lovin’ so good, though I know baby’s no good
Yeah the lovin’ so good, if I could stop it, I would
Yeah the lovin’ so good, ’cause we up to no good
But the lovin’ so good

When I was young I used to check for you under my bed
But now I’m older and instead I let you sleep on it

You’re smoking five days a week
Don’t you say hun why you can’t breathe
You’ve got nerves saying it aint that deep
Friends don’t wear skin to sleep

Why’d you let me sink in
Pools of wishful thinking
I don’t wanna swim anymore
Look at all these blood stains
I’ve been calling warpaint
There ain’t nothing here to fight for

King of my condo there’s a second toothbrush by the sink
Then I ask where your kingdom lies you hand a blank map with x and ink

I’m every metaphor
You hold me like I’m your everything and more
But when the sunwaves greet the floor
you make it clear I’m everything but yours

Why’d you let me sink in
Pools of wishful thinking
I don’t wanna swim anymore
Look at all these blood stains
I’ve been calling warpaint
There ain’t nothing here to fight for

I’m giving up the fight
Don’t wanna waste my time
You’ve gone for your life
Be my guest, be my guest, oh I’ll be fine

Oh, I’ll be fine

You love me with your bones
You hold me when I’m broke
You don’t ask for a thing
Oh, I hope it’s you they put me in the ground by

Know where I’ve been, where I’m from
You know who took me to prom
You’ve watched as my legs and pride grew taller
Oh, I wanna be the one you call drunk

Oh, I know that we march to the beat of different drums
We’re still so damn young
In and out of believing in love
What the fuck’s love?
All I know is love
When push comes to shove
I’ll be the one a-

Round and round we go
So much I don’t know
But even though this ain’t pretty and simple like a bed of roses
‘least I know my hope is
That you stick around ’til the end
’cause you’re my best friend

You cut me, I bleed gold
I miss you though you’re cold
You’re inside a different soul when I’m not around
But that’s ok, I do the same

Oh we’re in a maze with no end
But I’m amazed to no end
Darling, we don’t ever have to pretend
Who knows what or who we choose
Right now I’ve nothing to lose
You love me, I love you

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